Its been a good minute. Life has been super busy and I pushed blogging to the back burner (it didn't seem so important). But any who....
Guess who's BIZZACCK?!
Last time we talked, I was telling y'all about our infertility journey. Well, we're still in it- deeper than ever. I guess I can pick up where I left off.....
So after discovering we were having infertility issues, we had to do ALL the test. Of course, they start with the woman. So I was poked, prodded, and more. While we waited on the results of my bloodwork, my OBGYN, the infamous Dr. Cousins, IYKYK....sent me to the woman hospital to get a HSG (hysterosalpingogram). During this process they use a small catheter to inject dye into your uterus. When they push the dye through, they are checking for blockage in your fallopian tubes....
Pause for the cause-
Do you know how small your uterus and fallopian tubes are?? I didn't. I was so shocked- that thing looks like a kiwi with two spaghetti noodles attached lol. So tiny!
Any way, stay focused...
The dye flows through your uterus and down your fallopian tubes. It drips out of the tubes if their is no blockage. It's mildly painful- feels like light period cramps. I was so nervous- but excited to find out the issue. Hubby and I were new to this whole baby making situation and I didn't think I needed him to come with me for this procedure. I told him to go to work. Looking back, I wish I would've asked him to come. He's my strength and I needed him. Ya'll know how we can be as women sometimes- all bold and brave. But hey, lesson learned. I don't care if they are drawing blood, he already know- "oh, you coming, Big Dawg"!
There was no issue. I had no blockage and this was the first check on the longest checklist I've ever seen.
My bloodwork results came back. Mostly everything was normal except my progesterone levels, they were slightly low.
Dr. Counsins prescribed me my first round of Femara (Letrozole). Femara is actually a hormone based chemotherapy. Its used to basically suppressed estrogen production and promote egg growth and release. The only side effects I had from the medication was tiredness. Sis was exhausted! But thank God- because y'all know chemo causes hair loss. I've worked so hard to get this healthy head of hair- thought I was gonna be bald headed trying to have a baby. Praise the Lord for tiredness. But....
we continued to practice making this baby.
Even though this baby-making attempt was unsuccessful- my progesterone increased, my eggs were super plump, and I was marked as HEALTHY.
What an exhausting process that we continue to push through. We know our babies are on the other side of this....but we are human, we get tired, we get sad, we get angry, but we keep going because someone has to see this.
I am rooting for every "mama in waiting" out there! Girl, you got this! And anyone else that is going through situations that cause you to go through a plethora of emotions. Know that people pull from the strength of others. Someone is holding on because of your strength. Know that you were built for this! This moment in time, didn't catch God by surprise. He knew, and he's preparing you for greater. Lean on the people around you- they were placed there for a reason. I love my people! If it wasn't for MY PEOPLE, I have no idea where I would be.
Continue to read the blog and walk through life and infertility with me! I am so glad to share this space with you! Know that your words form your life. Speak out loud what God says about you. Walking into the place you prepared with your prayers -all the things God has assigned to you in his will- declare
I HAVE HOPE
"For nothing will be impossible with God "Luke 1:37
I love you girl,